When will I ever learn?

I know this may sound stupid, but whenever I get close to someone, I try to push them away.
I break it off or try to piss the person off,so they will break it off. I know, ridiculous.
Whenever someone gets close, I push them away to see if they will fight back.
They never do.
Why can't I just be happy? Why is that so hard?
I cannot seem to find the answers to those questions, maybe you can help me.
I'm tired of always screwing up. It may be something I say, or how I act, I honestly do not know.
I just know I am a screw up....and a lot of things.
I guess you can say I need help..? What kind of help is the question.

I guess I'm just waiting for someone to understand me..? No one does.
I'm weird, yeah, I realize that.